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hello. welcome to my blog. im new to this so bare with me. i am 16 years old and live in good ole orem, utah. i have this crazy mindset that i am going to change the world and so im going to do my best to achieve just that. life is too short to live with regrets so give it all you've got and take chances and don't you ever look back.

Friday, April 12, 2013

here's to the future :)

for quite some time now I've told myself that I want to get in shape and that I want to feel healthy and confident with and in my body. i tried eating healthy and doing cleanses and all of that. I then tried working out. I would work my butt off at the gym and then go home and eat some non healthy meal. what I didn't understand was that in order to become healthy you had to EAT healthy and EXERCISE daily if you want to see results. you can't do just one of these things and expect to just see changes and also feel them, you have to do both of them... they're a package deal...
at age 16 and a sophomore in high school it's hard. it's hard because confidence is so vital at this time in a teen’s life. I've never ever been confident with my body. I've been confident with myself just never with the way I look. every now and then i would read a magazine and see a supermodel on the front cover and think to myself... I wish I looked like her. But now that I've thoroughly thought through this and thought about it over time... I would never wish that. I don't want to be a size 0 and have the biggest boobs and behind ever and have a six pack spray tanned on my body just for a photo shoot. I don't want to have to starve myself to look a certain way just to please other people. It's not right and quite frankly it isn't reality. well not my reality anyway.
I will never look like that and you know what, that's perfectly okay with me! If I am going to change the way I look it’s because I want to feel better. If I want to lose weight and develop healthier eating habits it's going to be for me. not for anyone else or even anything else it's simply for me. you will come across situations and people in your life who will expect you to look a certain way. well at least I have!! it's just the little comments that will stick out and really hurt your feelings. comments about weight comments about height comments about acne, it could honestly be anything about your physical appearance and do you know what you... as long as you feel happy with yourself and like what you look like and how you feel that's all that matters. :) I am so done with trying to please people in hopes that now they will accept me because I have lost weight or have done something different with my hair. It's about how YOU feel and no one else.
I am so glad that I have learned this because this next chapter that I am going to take, I am going to need every part I what I learned. I am still learning and probably will be until the day I die. but I'm only okay with this because I made the choice to do this for ME.
I decided that I am going to embark on the journey to make myself happy and also healthy. I know that along the way I will come across challenges and hardships and also a lot of frustrations. But that's okay. I want to go through all of them to make me a better person. I'm so excited. I'm nervous and I know that there will be things that I fail at but over time I will better.
It really is a lifestyle change. It's not just going to change overnight it's going to take time for you to adapt to it and also to learn. for example, last night I went to a baseball game with my entire family. my mom had bought my friends and I a chicken tender meal with French fries. It smelt so yummy and looked so juicy and delicious. I didn't have a bite although my stomach was telling me to and then my head was telling myself that I shouldn't. I'm learning. And it's going to take time until I don't even have to think about the food that's yummy to me now because I'm changing my lifestyle and I couldn't be more excited about it! Here's to the future and a healthier and happier hailey :)

have a fabulous friday night lovelies


hailey mckell 

1 comment:

  1. Good for you, Hai-bear! It's a life long struggle. Why can't broccolli taste like fries? :)